After I dropped out from degree schools of various streams I was forced to study for IAS, at least! As expected, I could not clear first round even after repeated attempts.
By now things were slowly getting to smell rotten with my loving dad, my role model. My dad who was crazy about me had started to judge me based on my failure attempts to succeed in life. After all, his intentions were never unfair; he has known poverty from his childhood days and he wanted me to pursue good education and better life that he could not.
For my bad luck or undetermined efforts, I was completely unsuccessful in pursuing greater education up to his expectations.
There were several reasons to why my loving dad had started to be harsh on me. First of all, efforts to get a degree was complete failure on my part. I was getting older, according to third persons who interacted with my dad on a daily basis!!!!
I had never discussed my business plans with my dad fearing that I will hurt his sentiments and plans. But I could not meet his expectations either.
Gradually I started to feel awkward about myself. Not knowing what to do about that, I started to read books of self help to get some ideas on handling the situation and explaining my business plans to my dad to get his inputs and help and green signal to proceed with my long term passion and goal.
In the mean time, uninvited guests were spoiling the game, I was slowly becoming scapegoat for 'jobless people' in the town.
All the factors - my repeated failures to earn a degree or crack an exam, gossips and rumors of uninvited guests, my fear of disclosing my passion & discussing business plans with my dad, my silence about the questions related to future etc, were adding to my dad's frustration and in turn to his worry about me.
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